Ok, so they aren't all job interviews, although I have had a couple and live in hope that something will come soon (it has to be soon I only have a couple of weeks left in this job). The other interviews I've been doing is media/advertising. Before I start let me say it's awesome and I will post more articles as they are published but to say it's draining at a time I really need to keep positive is only the half of it.
There is no way I wouldn't do the interviews - if I can touch one person and get them behind the cause, how can it not be worth it? Emotionally though it's killing me. I've been in tears so many times at work, the emotions of losing Mum, losing my career in the Navy, losing my general health and losing my family don't need to be made all raw again but they are. On a positive, I guess I am getting better at handling them which can only make me stronger.
One of the things I needed to do for one article was to dig out the most recent picture of Mum and I - keep in mind she died in 1997, so it's not really "recent" per say. This is the picture 
and while it is pretty cute (as a few people have told me) it is double edged. I can see in my Mum's face how much pain she is in from her cancer (the smile on my face isn't half as bright as the one that use to eminate from hers) and the other sad element is that we didn't know it then, but the reason I was so sick and in hospital is that I had a tumor too. That was taken the day after my 20th birthday. I miss her horribly so.
and while it is pretty cute (as a few people have told me) it is double edged. I can see in my Mum's face how much pain she is in from her cancer (the smile on my face isn't half as bright as the one that use to eminate from hers) and the other sad element is that we didn't know it then, but the reason I was so sick and in hospital is that I had a tumor too. That was taken the day after my 20th birthday. I miss her horribly so.On brighter news, my training is going well - loads of aches from lazy old muscles, so I must be getting fitter! I was able to run a full lap of bridge to bridge last week (around 5km) which I haven't been able to do for a couple of years and just as pleasing is that I can get up Mt Ainslie with a pack on without stopping (great given a couple of months ago with no pack I was stopping 2-3 times at least). 10 days from now I'll be doing the Canberra Times Fun Run - I hope to be able to get under 1hr10min, but I'll be happy to complete the course and more so if i can jog more than half of it.
So, if you haven't been to my fundraising page lately too, please check in - I've updated it and although it's still slow going to my target, it's still climbing!
